Tuesday, April 21, 2015

A Little Scared—But Still Fighting

"You are in stage three kidney failure," he said.

My expression dropped.

"But don't let the word failure scare you. It's just he way we describe the disease. You are at the borderline of being able to turn this around or having something to really worry about. Right now, your kidneys are still working. You can affectively change your diet—going to a more vegetarian -style diet. Limit the meat you eat. Don't eat beef. You can have chicken, eggs, cheese. Don't drink colas. Drink water, water with lemon. Do you have any questions?"

"I don't know."

No I Am Not Going to Die, Yet
Yes, I struggling with reversing kidney disease. What I know is that through my diet I can reverse the damage that's already been done. I need to go vegetarian. But I need some vegetarian recipes. I'm not sure what I would like. I like most vegetables, but have only had them as a side dish up until now. How can I make them into a main dish? Any recipes would be welcome.

What I don't know is how well I'll be able to adhere to a vegetarian diet. And how well I'll be able to remind myself that a hamburger isn't worth dying over.

I don't know that much about kidney disease right now. But I will learn. I will try to relay anything that I do learn here.

I'm going to try to chronicle my journey. But lately, writing on this blog hasn't been a primary concern. So without making any promises, I'll let you know how I'm doing from time to time.

See you soon—

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

10 Positive Things I'm Doing to Improve My Life

Lately, writing anything has been extraordinarily painful for me. Well, not even lately. It's been quite a while.  I cannot find the words to say what I want. But, never fear, I'm working on it. Rather than focusing on what goes wrong during the day, I'm trying to focus on what's gone right. I'm doing that in my private journal. And I know I've been ignoring this one.

I'm working on food journaling again. That's going OK. I'm working out more. I cannot wait for warmer weather—and with the promise of better weather next week, all I can say is bring it on.

Please bear with me as I push past the pain. I know that's something I've struggled with all the while I've been writing this blog. But I've found some better coping tools than the ones I once relied upon. They include:

  1. talking to a counselor, 
  2. journaling, 
  3. looking for what went right rather then what went wrong, 
  4. art therapy, 
  5. spiritual connection with some amazing women I've met,
  6. exercise,
  7. my dogs,
  8. my family,
  9. new friends, and 
  10. many more positive things.

I'm looking forward to sharing more about my journey. I'm trying to look at my life as growth and not some painful existence that I'm just trying to get through. And that's a big change for me. I will write more soon.

Thursday, February 19, 2015

Maybe It's not the Wheat After All

While I'm trying to figure out if bread really does cause health problems, especially for people with thyroid disease, I'm reading a lot. This article from Mother Jones discusses that it might not be gluten that's making you sick. It might be the way we make bread. The Real Problem with Bread (It's Probably not Gluten) says that today's fast-acting yeasts and additives allow gluten levels to remain in higher in finished products. Also, commercial bakers add gluten to baked products to increase bread's elasticity.

Anyway, the article says that it's modern baking, not modern wheat, that's the culprit. The article is worth a read.

Sunday, January 11, 2015

Bread or Meat? I Have to Decide

Losing weight post menopause is hard, to say the very least. I'm really struggling. I worked out four times last week, watched what I ate, and still gained two pounds. WTF. OK. I'm not giving up, but I am certainly frustrated. I guess I'll have to go full on Paleo whether I want to or not. Giving up the carbs is so hard to do. But I guess it's a question of, "Do you want to be healthy or eat bread?"

I do like steak. And I have a freezer full of chicken. Ugh. I just gotta make up my mind.

Everything else isn't peachy, but I've made up my mind that I will do what I have to do to move forward in life.

For several months now, I've been having some vivid dreams. I won't go into a lot detail, but I can tell that I'm moving toward something new. We'll what plays out. I'll update any big changes, but I don't expect anything for a awhile. It's just moving that way.

I'm not sure what else to say. This is the longest post I've made in a few months. I'm trying to get beyond writer's block, too.

So I guess that's it for now. See you soon.

P.S. I don't usually endorse products, but if you haven't tried Poo-Pourri, let me tell you , it works. Now I'm not going to say it completely eliminates anything you did in the bathroom, but it sure helps.


Monday, January 05, 2015

Changing My Attitude

Every alarm clock I own is broken. I think that says a lot about the urgency I feel in getting up in the morning. That's something I'm working to change.

I have a number of things on my resolution list this year. The biggest thing is a change in attitude. And with that comes changes in the rest of my life.